Saturday, June 28, 2003

BLAH. Okay...Adrians dad didnt let him use the car so we didnt go the beach. Instead i went to Drays house, and i saw a blue Jag pass by, and it passed by again, so i called Aids on his cell phone and him and Edwin came over. We played some more Twister and talked for awhile, when Haley came home with Alex and like 3 other girls. We decided to go to Edwins house, and had some fun there. Dray left to go hang out w/ Chris, but he bailed on her. Anyways, things dulled down when she left, but picked up speed when Edwins mom came home w/ his cousin. I wonder how he got across the border. Anyways, he didnt speak any English, but he wasnt a peisa either. We played a trick on Jowin. Edwin had his cousin call him, and talk to him in Spanish. After like 5 mins, Jowin hung up. LOFL. Edwin was telling his cuz what to say, and it was so funny cuz he didnt really know what he was saying half the time. LoL. "un...un...que? NSX? (X pronounced in Spanish) man we had to hold back our laughs so hard. Jowin got mad and hung up. then he called back on Edwins cell, and his cuz aswered it. Then Jowin called Adrians cell and Edwins cousin answered THAT. LoL. all in spanish. Then he started to make fun of Jowin cuz Edwin told him he was Asian. so he was like "hyongwongkalinan..." and we had to walk away so Jowin didnt hear us laughing. Then a lil while later he called back on Edwins cell, and Edwin told him he was all alone and that he gotten the wrong number. "NO! i heard Adrian and Emelia laughing in the background!" hehe...except im not Emelia. Yeah...then it goes on. Jowin still dont know. dwins happy everybody knows what NRB is. Yeah...me and Aids walked home...we swapped shoes then he took mine. I went to get them and we ended up talking for awhile. Then i picked up Dray to see a movie, but we ended up going to the mall instead. Then we came back to my house and watched our video...then me and Dray recorded some more. LOFL!. the answering machine (Edwin Dray, Aids) : "This is Sharon calling about the rental" LOFL!!! [S]he had a freakin scary voice!!!!
~me~ at 1:07 AM

Wasted Youth

She looks into the mirror at her reflection.
what she found was far from perfection.
She looked at her nose she considered to long.
She looked at her lips that appeared all wrong.
Her eyes were too tiny, her lashes too thin.
Her cheekbones too high and too rounded her chin.
She hated her forehead, her skin-type, her hair.
She hated her looks and thought life was unfair.

The days turned to months and months became years.
The girl turned to a woman with new worries and fears.
The woman grows older as time wondered by.
Her face became wrinkles and her hands became dry.
Now an old withered picture she holds.
And she looks at the face that before her unfolds.

She stares at the pretty brown eyes full of light.
And wishes it back with all of her might.
She looks at the radiant smile she one hated.
And the glow of her skin which now was faded.
Beautiful color-rich hair she once had.
That now turned to silver and makes her so sad.

She puts her head down and starts to cry.
With beauty like that how could life pass her by.
~me~ at 12:37 AM

Friday, June 27, 2003

LOFL...yeah my mom is a retard. She came in to lecture me 'bout my report card...3 A's and 3 B's. I pulled of an A in Taylor!!!! so yeah...anyways, i have 3 absences from Bio, 4 from English, Video, and PE. Then i have 7 absences with Taylor and Viveros, which i dont get. She thinks im ditiching...hehe...i wish. Anyways, so she lectured me, kinda. (Okay, for a lil background info, my mom is computer illiterate. She bought a computer from a girl at work, basically brand new. The girl only used it like 2x and had just gotten it, but needed money so she sold it to my mom. t has a lot of AOL and other ad shit on there, and no matter how much we delete it, it keeps coming back) Okay, so shes like "oh..can u fix my computer?" "what did u do now?" "well...i tried to delete all that stuff again--*lowers voice* and i accidentally deleted the little blue E off the screen..." *i put my head in my hands and sigh* "no...bu-but but now...i use the trash can to get online" LOFL. she sounded so proud of herself. I guess i have to make another shortcut for her. LOFL...
~me~ at 9:56 AM

kay hi...today was an AWESOME day. lol. I babysat Mandy all day, from like 7:30 to 5. Wow...i would not be able to have a kid right now...lol...i dont gots the patience. I played housewife...i cleaned and chased the baby around...fought with her to take a nap and to eat, the usual. Aids and Edwin pulled up in Edwin's mom's Jag. NICE CAR. Edwin looked cute...haha...wearing some of Adrians old clothes...that ive never seen before. It was like a grey shirt, but nice, and a bling bling watch. hahaha. Aids looked cute too, he had on a overshirt, and that looks good on him. Anyways, Ray and Anthony came over, and I ordered some pizza. Adrian and Edwin left ot go get games, and came back with Twister and Jenga and Taboo. Twister was hella fun! i kicked all the guys' asses. hahaha. Yeah...i cheated at first for the hell of it, but then one game, the best one, lasted like 20 mins between me and Aids. I won. LOL. Got some porno positions there...hehehe...then we played Taboo: Me, Edwin, and Ray against Anthony, Adrian, and Matt. i got a picture of the gay couple on my chair (Adrian and Edwin). Yeah, so they left at 8:10 or so, and Matt Ray and Anthony chilled w/ me outside for awhile. Aids called me and invited me to the beach, and i called Dray and invited her. now im waiting for Mary. It was intersting...me and Aids actually had a convo...hehe...maybe this si the end of his assness??? Tomorrow should be fun...hehehe...i love u Ray!!! thank u so much!!!! so yeah...maybe Manda will learn how to surf. hehehe...I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!
~me~ at 12:51 AM

Thursday, June 26, 2003

hehe...i didnt have access to my blog all day cuz they were upgrading it or whatever...nothing much happened today. I went to Drays house after she called and woke me up...finished Rays blog, added music to it etc etc. Yeah. LoFL. Andrea is a tard...hahaha...we were watching Summer Hits on TRL, haha, and Sisqo came on, and i dunno what was going thru her mind, but she was like "what ever happened to Sasako?" LOFL! Then we just started laughing. Had to be there. Came home, and made Mary a blog. eh...PMS emotions course thru my body as i speak. I WANT TOPPERS PIZZA BAD!!!!!!!! I cried cuz i wanted it so bad...along w/ something else in my life...*sigh*. im talkin to Josh and Ray right now...my nocturnal buddies. U guys rock my world!!!
~me~ at 2:09 AM

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

hehe...sorry to those who IMed me within the last hour or so! I guess i fell asleep cuz i woke up on the floor just a lil bit ago. Im tired, so i will be on tomorrow. Goodnight. Ray...im working on yur blog...hehe, ill teach u how to use it if u dont figure it out by tomorrow...i got it, its easy.
~me~ at 1:26 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

woo hoo!!! i just got my internet back and im excited. It brok early Monday morning, and Tim called yesterday and the people told him that they needed to send a technician out but there needed to be an adult home...nobodys ever home!!! Then this morning i called to make an appt. and the next time they could get us in was next Thurs, as in like 10 days from now. I was so sad! hehehe...but its working now and i once again have a life (well, not really).
~me~ at 6:52 PM

Monday, June 23, 2003

Nobody's online to see my masterpiece...damn...hafta wait till later...=/
~me~ at 2:22 AM

I am so excited for my blog right now! Like all the added pictures? There will be more posted later on today. i ended up having a lot of fun today. Adrian IMed me and invited me and Dray to Edwin's to watch a movie. I was watching Boo, and Andrea took her siblings to the park, so we tagged along. Dray's poor bro cut his temple on the jungle gym so we came back home. I told her about the movie, and she went home. Adrian and Edwin came over at about 7:30, and i went to Edwins house, picking up Tim along the way. Mary met us there. We watched Gremlins...good times. hahaha. Lets see, we smashed eachother on the couch, hit eachother with pillows, and watched this Japanese show on TNN or TNT. It was hilarious...people hurting themselves pretty much on purpose. Hahaha. Edwin jumped on top of us when we were on the couch,a dn we were dogpiled, so when Edwin climbed off, Mary pulled down his boxers in the back and we saw some Edwin ass. LoL. Adrian got poked in each eye 2x...hahaha. "Ah! what are u guys trying to do? make me like Jowin?" they make fun of his Asian eyes. Then Mary took a chunk out of Adrian's gum...hahaha. OUCH. Yeah, so when i came home, i got the pics from Tim from last night, and i have set off to make my blog a beautiful one. Poor Aaron...computer dumass...but i still luff u!!! ou need to come over so we can :::hump hump::: LOFL.
~me~ at 2:21 AM

Sunday, June 22, 2003

i joslyn hernandez has went on mandas blog cause i was bored and usually when i fix other people blogs or have access to there blog... i leave a lil blog message... and usually i leave a lil suttin suttin too... hehe... hEy sExY mAmA!!!
~me~ at 4:50 PM

wow...today is weird...sorry Ray i luff u!!!! it'll be okay cuz im yur friend now! hehe, j/p. Call me if u need food =P (seriosuly) LoL...freakin Assmar:
"lol...i dreampt about me having an eating contest with joey tribiani. it was soo cool...because he tried eating something then i'd eat more and like i could still walk afterward!!! i was like WOOO!!" ....retard....but thats y i luff u
~me~ at 4:12 PM

TIM! i watched the video...hahaha...=( awwww. I luff u mucho!
~me~ at 1:52 PM

Institutionalized - Suicidal Tendencies

Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted
to.
I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it
doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out
It's like I need time to figure these things out
But there's always someone there going

Hey Mike:
You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.You
know, maybe you should get away and maybe you should talk about it, maybe
you'll feel a lot better

And I go:
No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure
it out. You know I'll just work by myself.

And they go:
Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll
probably feel a lot better if you talk about it.

And I go:
No I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself and they just keep
bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside and it
builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my
name and I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming MIKE! MIKE!
And I go:
What, what's the matter
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing-wrong mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
And I go:
No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't
you get me a pepsi.
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up
achair and they sat down, they go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I go:
Okay what's the matter
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of
problems, you've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna
hurt somebody, we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
where you could get the help that you need.
And I go:
Wait, what do you mean, what are you talking about, we decided!? My best
interest?! How can you know what's my best interest is? How can you say what
my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy? When I went to
your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning
facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy.

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter how's this childs play planned to turn out anyhow.

~me~ at 1:51 PM

just to let you guys know...this is really like...lol...my life. I like to be able to go back and read something and remember details...sorry if my entries are so long, but i like them that way =P
~me~ at 12:39 PM

heh...the blogs being weird. Had fun tonight. Hahaha. After whatever i last blogged about, me and Mary went and chilled w/ the gys and Andrea. blah blah blah. So we all split up to go take showers...or we're supposed to. I took a shower and so did Dray, but i called and Adrian was still at Tims. I talked to him and he couldnt get the car, so my mom said she could take us to the movies. So i call Dray, and then Tim, then the theaters, call Tim back, then Andrea, and then Tim again, and then Adrian wants to go, then we cant all fit in the car, and we dont have a ride home, so i ask Adrian to call and see if he can get his dads car, but that was a negative, so we ended up going to get a movie at Blockbuster. I had a gift card, and Adrian had the car for awhile longer, so us and Tim went to get a movie (nice thinking dray!). We got Old School, and decided to watch it at Tim’s. I went back home to finish getting ready as Adrian went home to shower. I went to Andrea’s house, and we grabbed Tim’s sister’s scooter thing and we went to Rays. Ray and Matt ended up coming over to Tim’s to watch the movie. We started it as Adrian came about 8. I was sitting on the bed, and Adrian was on the floor, but he climbed up and whispered "hey...i brought something to drink" so i asked him for it, and he was liek "oh, i put it outside...its in a flask...over there *points* its behind the trashcan. if u get it, you can have it...i thought Mary was gunna be here, so i thought i would bring it" so i went to get it, and he yelled back "but u gotta share" so i made him come w/ me. we got the flask and i gave him an empty water bottle and told him to fill it up. ray came out of the room to see what we were doing, and i went back inside the room, where Ray and Adrian stayed behind and drank some. They both came back in, and i could smell it, and Adrian handed me the bottle "peppermint snapps w/ vodka" and he sat down on the floor. i didn’t wanna drink it cuz i didn’t know if Tim would get mad. so i just held it. Tim left the room, and i downed a whole bunch of it, and Adrian got some more. and then i was like "here...watch" and i gave it to Andrea and Adrian looked at me like "???" and he was like "its not water" and she nodded and took a sip and she was about to spit it out, but then held back, then got up and then as she ran for the bedroom door everyone was laughing, but she swallowed it, and Adrian was like "hahaha...i told u it wasnt water" and she was like "u didnt tell me it was vodka either!!". Yeah...after that i was feeling the same effects i had felt at Rays house yesterday. LoL... that stuff makes me stupid...haha:
*Everyones watching teh movie--a firecracker oges off somewhere outside*
Me & Adrian: Oh! i thought someone farted!
*Everyone looks at us weird*
Me & Adrian: I thought it was Tonic!!!
Tonic: Excuse me??
Me & Adrian: hahahahaha!
Adrian: JYNX!!!
After the movie we messed around fro a bit, cuz no one wanted to go home, and Tim gave me the skate movie with everyone way back in the day on it. LoL. I said it was porn, and everyone asked to see it, and i said no, and Matt was like "c'mon, lets see what kind of kinky shit you're into" haha...if only he knew...LOL...or anyone for that matter...hehe...;) So yeah, then i started to walk home, and everyone except for Drey walked me. Adrian didnt want the flask anymore, so i took it, and before we got to my house, i was amzed cuz he had my back. He took the flask away from me and threw it down a storm drain. Ray got mad: "30 fish are gunna die now cuz of the broken glass" and adrian was like "at least amanda wont get in trouble" hehe...i was all tipsy. When i got home i was sad cuz i didnt wanna be home. Josh signed online and so did Adrian so i talked to them for awhile. Then like evryone and their mama IMed me, and i couldnt type very well, and they all asked if i was drunk. NO I WASNT DRUNK...just a little blurred. hahaha. I got scolded by Maryann and Veronica. Then i got a headache, and i didnt wanna go to bed just yet, for fear of waking up like how i did yesterday morning...yeah...i had a good convo with Josh...you are an awesome guy. Im excited...i hope the rest of summer goes something like this...=P
~me~ at: 3:02 am
~me~ at 12:35 PM